J. Good evening Lord (not “Good lord, evening!”) What a fantabulous day. Did everything I needed to do and then some that I wanted to do. Thank you.
I have finally realised that to be where You
are constantly is a fabulous freedom. It
took me years to let go of the small things that stood in the way. Stood between me and You. Small things like replacing the toilet roll
in a toilet when I was out somewhere and it ran out. Putting my grocery trolley back, no matter if
the weather was against me or I was in a hurry etc etc . Leaving the dollar in for the next person (not
looking first to make sure they are deserving of my dollars?) If I can’t do the
small things then I know I won’t be trustworthy enough for the BIG things.
For years I had an unteachable
attitude. I thought I was good, went to
seminars – did all the big things, but forgot the small things. I was self centred and unhappy. You can’t be self-centred and happy. I was selfish, greedy, jealous, ungrateful –
the list goes on. And Unhappy!!! No surprises there. I had huge problems but I didn’t think I had
a problem. They had a problem not me – it wasn’t my fault. Oh yes it was!
Surrender (I have learned) =
pain before pleasure. Not physical pain,
but the pain of not always getting our own way.
To be who you really are is a
huge freedom, and my journey has been a journey to freedom.
When I started really working
with You I quickly realised there was no-where to hide. Now you are with me all the time. I start each class, each consultation by saying “Please help me today. Without your help I know I will say the wrong
thing, I will muck up. Keep me on track,
on course. I know that I can over-study, over think things,
and I need you when I am in front of a class.
If you are not with me I just get in my mind too much. I get Stuck”.
I know if You don’t take
control, If You don’t win when I am arguing, then I will be miserable. I now know that everything that is Yours is
mine and everything that is mine is Yours.
What a wonderful place to be.
S. That’s
quite a revelation you have had. But not
unexpected. This morning I see that you
were glancing at the Bible.
In particular Pillippians
4.4. I will “translate” a bit to make it
easier.
“Always rejoice in the Lord. Once more I say Rejoice! Let your reasonableness be known to all
people. The Lord is near. DO NOT BE ANXIOUS
OVER ANYTHING, but in EVERYTHING in prayer and supplications along with
thanksgiving, let your requests be known
to God. And the peace of God that excels
all thought will guard your hearts and minds”.
This is all about letting go and letting God,
remembering of course that attachment to anything equals suffering. If you take to heart the words given to you
here. If you believe that others have
tried them and they have succeeded (and it is a best selling book, so it must
be good). Then it falls upon everyone
who wishes to succeed to try them. These are Universal Laws which We put in
place to assist you. They are your
personal guide to abundance.
J. Until I understood, until I worked With You beside me,
life was a struggle. Now it is a
joy. Each day an excitement. Each day a revelation. Today God, you and I did good things. Helped people, advised, assisted. Made people happy. Showed them the way. I couldn’t, wouldn’t, do the work I do without You. I was lucky and I grew up with these tools. The fact I ran away from You is another story
for another time.
Here is my morning
prayer. “I commit myself to Your
will. I give my heart and soul to
You. I deserve the best cause in life. I
am a child of the Universe, I am a tiny
spark, a manifestation of You”
…I never guessed that holding on to my beliefs, kneeling down
scrubbing floors (wonderfully educational though it was), that this was the way my life would go. I could never imagine the fulfilling,
exciting path my life would take. All I
had to do was say YES! Yes, yes,
yes. I am so excited to be part of the
unfolding
By the way. I am now teaching The Yamas to my
teacher. How can one teach or do anything
without them! Doesn't mean we manage to perfectly work through them, but we know what they are, and we are aware.
NAMASTE and thank you.
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